Airports, boarding and carry-ons-aaaggghh!

Why does air travel have to be so exhausting!? I am not sure what all the airlines thought would happen when they decided to start charging for bags- did they think people would just roll over and say "oh yes we would love to pay outlandish fees for our bags that you throw under the plane!"So now it takes forever to board a flight because everyone is trying to cram all their things in a carryon bag and then trying to cram it in a limited amount of spaces- duh! In addition to this hassle as you struggle to cram your carry on it the overhead bin- 15+ people are behind you waiting to get to their seat and hoping they can cram their carry on too! Hmmm i have an idea if as an airline you deem in necessary to assign your passengers seats then you should probably board accordingly- fine board first class first- but proceed to board the plane from the back to the front- then you don't have a line out of the plane trying to get on! It seems logical to me- ok so after you do all this nearly all the flight attendants are rude, mean, or sarcastic! No, I said most, not all - and i get you deal with rude people, crying babies, and well dumb people- but u can't return the attitude or give it to those that just simply sat down in your section- and don't get me started on the -hardly ever nice - people that check your bags at security- you already get to watch me unpack my bag to send through your stupid machines, make me remove my shoes and then are rude to me? This whole unpack, scan, redress, repack routine is not my idea of fun either- my bad if i didn't use enough bins for you or separate my computer from everything else- sheesh - you chose this job right? Pretend to enjoy and it would go by much better! Thank you and goodnight. !

Doggy anxiety

My anxiety has really come a long way- i am getting good at saying, " it is not my fight or concern"- I am in no way saying I still don't get upset or irrational about things- I simply have gotten better at leaving it at an irrational fit and not letting it bog me down. So with so many steps forward why am I so anxious about leaving my dog for a week? I am gripped with irrational fear that something will happen to her or she will hate us for leaving her! I know she is a dog and will be fine- it really only took her a couple of weeks to fully accept us and that this her home. Will she forget that if we are gone too long? The rational part of me knows better, but the "motherly" part of me wells up with tears thinking about it! This is the first time we are leaving her... So i know it will get better- i am sure this is close to how a new mother feels when she leaves her baby...and yet I am speaking about a dog... Seriously if kids can forgive their parents for leaving them for days at a time, our dog will forgive us too- maybe that is how I should look at it- she is going to "grandma's" house- where she will be spoiled with constant attention and multiple walks a day! Maybe she will loves us more for treating her to suck a great week- ok- phew that is how to help get over leaving her and maybe calling some references ;)

The hmmms

I am not sure what to call it- I will call it the hmms- i will call it this because you feel like you are buzzing.. It also feels like something is bothering you, but you can not pin point it. It is kind of like have something in the bottom of your shoe, but when you take your shoe off- you can't see anything- so you put it back on, only to feel like something is still there. I do think perhaps it is trying to find a dog sitter- i realize that sounds odd. Let me explain- my husband and i will be going out of town and will need someone to watch our dog- i think realizing that i know no one in this town is hitting me. I am also realizing i burned some bridges when i was so angry prior to my therapy. I am also realizing I am anxious about leaving my dog for a week! How sad! I know she will be fine, but it is part of my being to worry- sigh i am stilling feeling that buzz....hmmmmmm

"Misplace"

There are so many silly things in life.. such as earlier I was vacuuming while eating cookie...ya know that may have been a little bit counter productive... crumbs should be in front of the vacuum not behind it lol! Before I began vacuuming, I had a bit of a cord problem... My cord had managed to turn itself into a knot! Have you ever noticed that cords, light, and anything cord like manages to do that? How can you lay something down then pick it up and it is in a knot? Are they secretly snakes that coil themselves when you are not watching? Or what about leftover containers? Why can you only find the lid or the bottom, but most often you can not find them both when you need them?  Oh.. I know the biggest mystery...where do socks go? How do they get lost from wash to dryer??  Here in our house we "misplace" things all the time- I have decided there is a cubby where a ghost or gnome of some kind is hoarding them..lost socks, lost weather radio, lost rings.... If I ever find them all, the gnome/ghost will be receiving a very big talking to...

been a while

I apologize to those you do read my blog- I have been a bit MIA- So big news!
There is a new love in my life- well two actually- the main one is our new dog! It's so great and I must say most of the time she is a great stress reliever- You just look at the face and those ears and you just can't stay mad or anxious or when she jumps up on you and smiles! My other new love is a great new shampoo/conditioner! I know the two don't really compare, but a great shampoo highly contributes to a great hair day and that relates to a better day! It truly is the little things that make or break a day- You have to find joy in the little things to get over the horrible bad things. Whether its family issues, marriage issues, work issues, or whatever- if you can hold on to those small things that make you happy about your family, your marriage, or your work- it helps make the bad seem a little less bad... Hold onto the small things and it will help get you through the day! :)

Holidays

Uggh holidays stress me out! No matter what you decide to do- somebody will be upset! It should not be about the day- it should be about spending a day together as a family-

Decisions, decisions, decisions

We make them everyday from what to wear, to what to eat, to how to do your hair, to how we put on our socks- everything is a decision. If we can all make these simple decision everyday with out agonizing over them, why do other decisions haunt us? Sometimes it is such a simple decision that we go over and over again in our heads, wishing we made a different one- why do we do that? We know after that decision is made and there is no going back? We make our decision usually on the knowledge that we have, yet the phrase, "if i knew then what I know now" I would never have done that.. but isn't that the point?- We didn't know that- that decision, that experience helped shape us into who we are now. Why is that so hard to accept- why are we so obsessed with trying to change- what we can't?