A random Pet Peeve

As I am blogging I am watching TV- it is really a horrible habit - but sitting in a quiet empty house is a little creepy- anyway I notice there are so many of these commercials about "Did you take this drug? Contact us you may be entitled to money" This really gets under my skin as many of these drugs have the warnings on the label! DUH its like suing the tobacco company when you have been smoking your whole life- IT IS ON THE PACKAGE its is BAD FOR YOU! It just irritates me that the law system is so backed up with frivolous law suits!. I think it is wrong to push lawsuits on people. - the end

Communitcation

We all learn to speak at a young age..yet why do we found it so hard to speak to one another? When do we start to assume people know what we are thinking or feeling? I know it is stereotypically a "women" thing, but I think this a problem we all suffer from. How often do you tell your boss what is wrong with you, when they ask you? Especially if you are upset with them. When your significant other asks you "what's wrong?" how often to you answer or tell the truth? Why do we start thinking the other person can read our minds or assume they should know what is wrong? Why do we learn to speak when we can't learn to communicate? Why are we so fearful of saying what is really on our minds? Granted it feels sometimes that even when we do speak our minds that the other person is not really listening- but you end up feeling icky either way right? So why not just spit it out at least then you have a real reason to be upset.

Nagging

Yup the nagging feeling is back and of course i have no idea why- although i am happy to report that our dog was fine while we were gone and so was i :) - lol anyway that nagging feeling... Like something is pulling at the back of my mind- maybe its the book i am reading- i get too involved sometimes and forget that i am not part of the story, nor is it real. Maybe thats it? Maybe its that i havent been diligent in my journaling... I am sure that is part if it- it is easier to keep my head on straight when i can kind of lay my thoughts out in black and white- i also go to the dr tom... Which may provide bad news or worse no news at all, sadly knowing/learning nothing is just as bad as bad news...maybe its just a little bit of everything-job is going ok- getting burnt out and i am finding it harder to clean to hope that I will truly be happy with where i am at... In my job and in life... No wonder my brain is such a nag- too much to think about with no desire to think about it...

Airports, boarding and carry-ons-aaaggghh!

Why does air travel have to be so exhausting!? I am not sure what all the airlines thought would happen when they decided to start charging for bags- did they think people would just roll over and say "oh yes we would love to pay outlandish fees for our bags that you throw under the plane!"So now it takes forever to board a flight because everyone is trying to cram all their things in a carryon bag and then trying to cram it in a limited amount of spaces- duh! In addition to this hassle as you struggle to cram your carry on it the overhead bin- 15+ people are behind you waiting to get to their seat and hoping they can cram their carry on too! Hmmm i have an idea if as an airline you deem in necessary to assign your passengers seats then you should probably board accordingly- fine board first class first- but proceed to board the plane from the back to the front- then you don't have a line out of the plane trying to get on! It seems logical to me- ok so after you do all this nearly all the flight attendants are rude, mean, or sarcastic! No, I said most, not all - and i get you deal with rude people, crying babies, and well dumb people- but u can't return the attitude or give it to those that just simply sat down in your section- and don't get me started on the -hardly ever nice - people that check your bags at security- you already get to watch me unpack my bag to send through your stupid machines, make me remove my shoes and then are rude to me? This whole unpack, scan, redress, repack routine is not my idea of fun either- my bad if i didn't use enough bins for you or separate my computer from everything else- sheesh - you chose this job right? Pretend to enjoy and it would go by much better! Thank you and goodnight. !

Doggy anxiety

My anxiety has really come a long way- i am getting good at saying, " it is not my fight or concern"- I am in no way saying I still don't get upset or irrational about things- I simply have gotten better at leaving it at an irrational fit and not letting it bog me down. So with so many steps forward why am I so anxious about leaving my dog for a week? I am gripped with irrational fear that something will happen to her or she will hate us for leaving her! I know she is a dog and will be fine- it really only took her a couple of weeks to fully accept us and that this her home. Will she forget that if we are gone too long? The rational part of me knows better, but the "motherly" part of me wells up with tears thinking about it! This is the first time we are leaving her... So i know it will get better- i am sure this is close to how a new mother feels when she leaves her baby...and yet I am speaking about a dog... Seriously if kids can forgive their parents for leaving them for days at a time, our dog will forgive us too- maybe that is how I should look at it- she is going to "grandma's" house- where she will be spoiled with constant attention and multiple walks a day! Maybe she will loves us more for treating her to suck a great week- ok- phew that is how to help get over leaving her and maybe calling some references ;)

The hmmms

I am not sure what to call it- I will call it the hmms- i will call it this because you feel like you are buzzing.. It also feels like something is bothering you, but you can not pin point it. It is kind of like have something in the bottom of your shoe, but when you take your shoe off- you can't see anything- so you put it back on, only to feel like something is still there. I do think perhaps it is trying to find a dog sitter- i realize that sounds odd. Let me explain- my husband and i will be going out of town and will need someone to watch our dog- i think realizing that i know no one in this town is hitting me. I am also realizing i burned some bridges when i was so angry prior to my therapy. I am also realizing I am anxious about leaving my dog for a week! How sad! I know she will be fine, but it is part of my being to worry- sigh i am stilling feeling that buzz....hmmmmmm

"Misplace"

There are so many silly things in life.. such as earlier I was vacuuming while eating cookie...ya know that may have been a little bit counter productive... crumbs should be in front of the vacuum not behind it lol! Before I began vacuuming, I had a bit of a cord problem... My cord had managed to turn itself into a knot! Have you ever noticed that cords, light, and anything cord like manages to do that? How can you lay something down then pick it up and it is in a knot? Are they secretly snakes that coil themselves when you are not watching? Or what about leftover containers? Why can you only find the lid or the bottom, but most often you can not find them both when you need them?  Oh.. I know the biggest mystery...where do socks go? How do they get lost from wash to dryer??  Here in our house we "misplace" things all the time- I have decided there is a cubby where a ghost or gnome of some kind is hoarding them..lost socks, lost weather radio, lost rings.... If I ever find them all, the gnome/ghost will be receiving a very big talking to...